Don’t Tell Me It’s Over
September 17th, 2008 § Leave a Comment
So, let me be the first to say, I was wrong. Mistakes were made.
In a previous post, dated May 11, 2008, titled “I Drink Your Milkshake”, I may have made some claims that “Karma” was ignoring me and bad things weren’t happening to me…well, that was true then, but four months later, things are sadly the complete opposite.
Lately, Karma has been a total puta to me. I had finally been doing well with life, making good decisions, and just generally moving in a positive direction with everything. But then…I made a mega mistake…it wasn’t supposed to happen, yet it did. Now, I’m reaping the wave of crap for my lack of self control and foresight.
There is no way I could ever apologize enough for my mistake. I’ve already explicitly said that I will apologize everyday for the rest of my life, until it’s finally accepted that I really am sorry and that I really do regret the incident.
But anyway, back to Karma. So here is a list of things that have happened in the past, say, week or so:
- My alarm clock was messed with and hidden.
- My car didn’t start (it did later though, but still).
- I got a C on a paper that was CLEARLY B material.
- My kidneys are acting like they’re infected.
- I completely lost any chance of being happy for the rest of my life, unless by some miracle, I can get my act together and prove myself.
So pretty much…I was wrong. You need to be a good person to get ANYWHERE in life. Being a douche only produces bad results. So please, do us all a favor, and quit being a douche.
Cody
p.s. I’m sorry…
Friendship; Revisited
September 14th, 2008 § 1 Comment
It’s kind of funny to me, that when you are at your worst, at your absolute lowest point in life, your “friends” make you feel worse. That’s when the true color of “friendship” comes out. That’s when you learn what kind of people your “friends” truly are.
When you call a “friend” crying, and you don’t know what to do, pray to God they don’t side with the other person. Pray to God that they comfort you and don’t make you feel even worse about what you did and who you hurt and what type of mistakes you made. Pray to God that they’ll stay on the phone with you while you sob to them, and when you’re done blubbering like and idiot, pray to God one last time that what comes out of their mouth through your phone is encouragement and help.
Last night taught me to trust no one, not even myself. I’m the worst “friend” of all, that’s probably why I don’t have any…
I’m sorry to all those that were pushed away by the actions of last night and the preceding days. I’m sorry you all had to experience that with me, and that it put such a strain on our friendships and relationships. I hope you can forgive me, but from my experiences with “friends” in the past, I won’t be expecting you to.
I’m taking most of your advice from here on out, just stay a little while longer to see the fruits of your labors.
So if I have any of you left…if any of you are still on board, let me know, because I’m feeling like I messed up past any point of salvation.
